From Powers of Horror: An Essay on Abjection
Chapter One: APPROACHING ABJECTION
No Beast is there without glimmer of infinity,
No eye so vile nor abject that brushes not
Against lightning from on high, now tender, now fierce.
Victor Hugo, La Legende des siecles
NEITHER SUBJECT NOR OBJECT
There looms, within abjection, one of those violent, dark re-
volts of being, directed against a threat that seems to emanate
from an exorbitant outside or inside, ejected beyond the scope
of the possible, the tolerable, the thinkable. It lies there, quite
close, but it cannot be assimilated. It beseeches, worries, and
fascinates desire, which, nevertheless, does not let itself be se-
duced. Apprehensive, desire turns aside; sickened, it rejects. A
certainty protects it from the shameful—a certainty of which
it is proud holds on to it. But simultaneously, just the same,
that impetus, that spasm, that leap is drawn toward an elsewhere
as tempting as it is condemned. Unflaggingly, like an inescap-
able boomerang, a vortex of summons and repulsion places the
one haunted by it literally beside himself.
When I am beset by abjection, the twisted braid of affects
and thoughts I call by such a name does not have, properly
speaking, a definable object. The abject is not an ob-ject facing
me, which I name or imagine. Nor is it an ob-jest, an otherness
ceaselessly fleeing in a systematic quest of desire. What is abject
is not my correlative, which, providing me with someone or
something else as support, would allow me to be more or less
detached and autonomous. The abject has only one quality of
the object—that of being opposed to I. If the object, however,
through its opposition, settles me within the fragile texture of
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a desire for meaning, which, as a matter of fact, makes me
ceaselessly and infinitely homologous to it, what is abject, on
the contrary, the jettisoned object, is radically excluded and
draws me toward the place_where meaning collapses. A certain
"ego" that merged with its master, a superego, has flatly driven
it away. It lies outside, beyond the set, and does not seem to
agree to the latter's rules of the game.
And yet, from its place of banishment, the abject does not cease challenging its master.
Without a sign (for him), it beseeches a discharge, a convulsion,
a crying out. To each ego its object, to each superego its abject.
It is not the white expanse or slack boredom of repression, not
the translations and transformations of desire that wrench bod-
ies, nights, and discourse; rather it is a brutish suffering that,
"I" puts up with, sublime and devastated, for "I" deposits it
to the father's account [verse au pere—pere-uersion]: I endure
it, for I imagine that such is the desire of the other.
A massive and sudden emergence of uncanniness, which, familiar as it
might have been in an opaque and forgotten life, now harries
me as radically separate, loathsome. Not me. Not that. But not
nothing, either. A "something" that I do not recognize as a
thing. A weight of meaninglessness, about which there is noth-
ing insignificant, and which crushes me. On the edge of non-
existence and hallucination, of a reality that, if I acknowledge
it, annihilates me. There, abject and abjection are my safe-
guards. The primers of my culture.
THE IMPROPER/UNCLEAN
Loathing an item of food, a piece of filth, waste, or dung. The
spasms and vomiting that protect me. The repugnance, the
retching that thrusts me to the side and turns me away from
defilement, sewage, and muck. The shame of compromise, of
being in the middle of treachery. The fascinated start that leads
me toward and separates me from them.
Food loathing is perhaps the most elementary and most ar-
chaic form of abjection. When the eyes see or the lips touch
that skin on the surface of milk—harmless, thin as a sheet of
cigarette paper, pitiful as a nail paring—I experience a gagging
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sensation and, still farther down, spasms in the stomach, the
belly; and all the organs shrivel up the body, provoke tears and
bile, increase heartbeat, cause forehead and hands to perspire.
Along with sight-clouding dizziness, nausea makes me balk at
that milk cream, separates me from the mother and father who
proffer it. "I" want none of that element, sign of their desire;
"I" do not want to listen, "I" do not assimilate it, "I" expel
it. But since the food is not an "other" for "me," who am only
in their desire, I expel myself, I spit myself out, I abject myself
within the same motion through which "I" claim to establish
myself. That detail, perhaps an insignificant one, but one that
they ferret out, emphasize, evaluate, that trifle turns me inside
out, guts sprawling; it is thus that they see that "I" am in the
process of becoming an other at the expense of my own death,
During that course in which "I" become, I give birth to myself
amid the violence of sobs, of vomit. Mute protest of the symp-
tom, shattering violence of a convulsion that, to be sure, is
inscribed in a symbolic system, but in which, without either
wanting or being able to become integrated in order to answer
to it, it reacts, it abreacts. It abjects.
The corpse (or cadaver: cadere, to fall), that which has irre-
mediably come a cropper, is cesspool, and death; it upsets even
more violently the one who confronts it as fragile and fallacious
chance. A wound with blood and pus, or the sickly, acrid smell
of sweat, of decay, does not signify death. In the presence of
signified death—a flat encephalograph, for instance—I would
understand, react, or accept. No, as in true theater, without
makeup or masks, refuse and corpses show me what I perma-
nently thrust aside in order to live. These body fluids, this
defilement, this shit are what life withstands, hardly and with
difficulty, on the part of death. There, I am at the border of
my condition as a living being. My body extricates itself, as
being alive, from that border. Such wastes drop so that I might
live, until, from loss to loss, nothing remains in me and my
entire body falls beyond the limit—cadere, cadaver. If dung
signifies the other side of the border, the place where I am not
and which permits me to be, the corpse, the most sickening of
wastes, is a border that has encroached upon everything. It is
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no longer I who expel, "I" is expelled. The border has become
an object. How can I be without border? That elsewhere that
I imagine beyond the present, or that I hallucinate so that I
might, in a present time, speak to you, conceive of you—it is
now here, jetted, abjected, into "my" world. Deprived of
world, therefore, I fall in a faint. In that compelling, raw, in-
solent thing in the morgue's full sunlight, in that thing that no
longer matches and therefore no longer signifies anything, I
behold the breaking down of a world that has erased its borders:
fainting away. The corpse, seen without God and outside of
science, is the utmost of abjection. It is death infecting life.
Abject. It is something rejected from which one does not part,
from which one does not protect oneself as from an object.
Imaginary uncanniness and real threat, it beckons to us and
ends up engulfing us.
It is thus not lack of cleanliness or health that causes abjection
but what disturbs identity, system, order. What does not respect
borders, positions, rules. The in-between, the ambiguous, the
composite. The traitor, the liar, the criminal with a good con-
science, the shameless rapist, the killer who claims he is a
savior. . . . Any crime, because it draws attention to the frag-
ility of the law, is abject, but premeditated crime, cunning mur-
der, hypocritical revenge are even more so because they
heighten the display of such fragility. He who denies morality
is not abject; there can be grandeur in amorality and even in
crime that flaunts its disrespect for the law—rebellious, liber-
ating, and suicidal crime.
Abjection, on the other hand, is immoral, sinister, scheming, and shady:
a terror that dissembles,* a hatred that smiles, a passion that uses the body for barter
instead of inflaming it, a debtor who sells you up, a friend who
stabs you.*. . . In the dark halls of the museum that is now what remains
of Auschwitz, I see a heap of children's shoes, or something
like that, something I have already seen elsewhere, under a
Christmas tree, for instance, dolls I believe. The abjection of
Nazi crime reaches its apex when death, which, in any case,
kills me, interferes with what, in my living universe, is sup-
posed to save me from death: childhood, science, among other
things. A
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THE ABJECTION OF SELF
If it be true that the abject simultaneously beseeches and pul-
verizes the subject, one can understand that it is experienced
at the peak of its strength when that subject, weary of fruitless
attempts to identify with something on the outside, finds the
impossible within; when it finds that the impossible constitutes
its very being, that it is none other than abject. The abjection
of self would be the culminating form of that experience of the
subject to which it is revealed that all its objects are based merely
on the inaugural loss that laid the foundations of its own being.
There is nothing like the abjection of self to show that all ab-
jection is in fact recognition of the want on which any being,
meaning, language, or desire is founded. One always passes too
quickly over this word, "want," and today psychoanalysts are
finally taking into account only its more or less fetishized prod-
uct, the "object of want." But if one imagines (and imagine
one must, for it is the working of imagination whose foun-
dations are being laid here) the experience of want itself_as log-
ically preliminary to being and object—to the being of the
object—then one understands that abjection, and even more so
abjection of self, is its only signified. Its signifier, then, is none
but literature. Mystical Christendom turned this abjection of
self into the ultimate proof of humility before God, witness
Elizabeth of Hungary who "though a great princess, delighted
in nothing so much as in abasing herself."1
The question remains as to the ordeal, a secular one this time,
that abjection can constitute for someone who, in what is
termed knowledge of castration, turning away from perverse
dodges, presents himself with his own body and ego as the
most precious non-objects; they are no longer seen in their own
right but forfeited, abject. The termination of analysis can lead
us there, as we shall see. Such are the pangs and delights of
masochism.
Essentially different from "uncanniness," more violent, too,
abjection is elaborated through a failure to recognize its kin;
nothing is familiar, not even the shadow of a memory. I imagine
a child who has swallowed up his parents too soon, who fright-
ens himself on that account, "all by himself," and, to save
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himself, rejects and throws up everything that is given to him—
all gifts, all objects. He has, he could have, a sense of the abject.
Even before things for him are—hence before they are signi-
fiable—he drives them out, dominated by drive as he is, and
constitutes his own territory, edged by the abject. A sacred
configuration. Fear cements his compound, conjoined to an-
other world, thrown up, driven out, forfeited. What he has
swallowed up instead of maternal love is an emptiness, or rather
a maternal hatred without a word for the words of the father;
that is what he tries to cleanse himself of, tirelessly. What solace
does he come upon within such loathing? Perhaps a father,
existing but unsettled, loving but unsteady, merely an appar-
ition but an apparition that remains. Without him the holy brat
would probably have no sense of the sacred; a blank subject,
he would remain, discomfited, at the dump for non-objects that
are always forfeited, from which, on the contrary, fortified by
abjection, he tries to extricate himself. For he is not mad, he
through whom the abject exists. Out of the daze that has pet-
rified him before the untouchable, impossible, absent body of
the mother, a daze that has cut off his impulses from their
objects, that is, from their representations, out of such daze he
causes, along with loathing, one word to crop up—fear. The
phobic has no other object than the abject. But that word,
"fear"—a fluid haze, an elusive clamminess—no sooner has it
cropped up than it shades off like a mirage and permeates all
words of the language with nonexistence, with a hallucinatory,
ghostly glimmer. Thus, fear having been bracketed, discourse
will seem tenable only if it ceaselessly confront that otherness,
a burden both repellent and repelled, a deep well of memory
that is unapproachable and intimate: the abject
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